Blabbering ChillyJilly

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2010-06-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

Summer Babe & Hunk 2010 Seventeen

On Razor TV

2010-06-23T01:02:00.000+08:00

Summer Babe & Hunk 2010 Seventeen

togetherness...

2009-12-21T10:09:00.000+08:00

Two blackberry together. Now an itouch. There's three laptops. Macbook white, asus laptop and macbook pro. Wahahahaha. Rock on! What's more kick ass then anything else man.

dec 09............ right.........

2009-12-19T06:13:00.002+08:00

worst dec 09 ever.
i am piled up with sch work.
i am broke with zero.
i dun wanna borrow. i dun want to owe.

i cant ask for help, cause both of them, is jus unwilling to help
thanks for u. that i can confirm with u.

its totally fuck.
i am too tired to call the friends out.
too much work to do.
calling them means spenting more money
and i dun have e means to do it this year.

its serious zero to the max.

i cant buy christmas presents. although i would love too
share and give love to true friends.

i wanna make 09 an kick ass birthday celebrate
but hey, shit ain't happening that way.
no money no celebration. PERIOD.

so.......... no plans no birthday
i dun want to plan i dun want to crack my brains on what to do for my birthday
so dun ask me what i wan. jus do it, good or bad i will definately appreciate it.

i dun ask for a concert celebration

thank u fel! love u deeps man!
looking forward to my birthday celebration from u ha.
no presents needed. that celebration is already a present to me..
thats more then enough.

so i need to hang out with people that can help me out in my life ?
hmmmmm i tout all i need for friends is friends who can be there for me.
those is there mentally to support me or cheer me up. laugh with me or piss me off
then thats about it right ?

why do friends need to be a use to me?
why do they need to be someone who can help u in life ?
i need emotion support from friends that will help me out in life
i am feeling like fuck in life. that i'm fuck .

are friends r really people u can make use off ?
thats shallow. yyes everyone make use of everyone.

my friends are people who go thru the up and downs with me.
i lost two fucked girlfriends. that i cant be bothered no more.
i lost a sensative friend

my two best guy friends totally MIA with their girlfriends
my two best childhood friends is busy overseas and with her own boyfriend.
my girls, just dun regard my calls. or simply busy with they own time. usually after midnight.
my bunch of guy friends, too busy thinking of classes, or girls they wanna woo or look for more girls..... or something, no drinks no party...........

i still have my group of buddies in sch............. hmmmmmmmmmmm theres a glimp of light...... haha............... that i dun have to worry for now.

and darling fel.

sooooooooo maybe its me ? is there something wrong about me ?
do my friends have issue with me
or is everyone jus too busy with life ? till i need a life myself ?
or am i jus fucked on my own. my own world.

shit........ dec is fuck man.
christmas is fuck
birthday is fuck

ah get it done and over with.
i am sure i can get it over and done with.

yes i am a judgemental bitch.
i judge, i'm an idoit.
only making trouble for myself
open mouth only make more trouble.
thats fuck
no wonder its jus good to keep ur mouth shut
then again u feel like shit on the inside.

so............ i go back being busy on my own.
or thinking for others but nv for myself.
thats dump.... fuck ...........

dec is jus

ya u can call it " kickass" weeeeeeeee...............

peace out.
later.........

sigh

2009-10-12T13:28:00.001+08:00

... i want to go away for my bday....

wee ?

2009-10-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

life have nv been so exciting

weeeeeeeee -.- .... .... ....

O one more thing

2009-10-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

o yeah..... with * enthu *
yeah.... the boyfriend is going to BKK the very next day right after my bday to celebrate new years eve there..... yeahhh.... good for him!!

yeahhh

................ weee peee.................

* wave hands half dead with -.- expression *

busy shit

2009-10-12T00:13:00.001+08:00

from the moment i came out of the hopsital.
i am zero to be hero! really literally ZERO. so i be hero.
not funny! i am lost lucky i got nothing to print anymore!
then again i got fucking bills to pay! CB!

the moment i got better!
its time to slog my ass off again.
one wk mc
seems like there no MC!

sigh........ LIFE SO TOUGH!!!

HELP!

pls donation! ( fuck took me 2 mins to think how to spell this! ) BOOMZ LA! lol

not funny,

the damn drip screwed my mind!

CB damn stress!
later!

finally a break from the rest of the world....

2009-08-09T08:17:00.004+08:00

hehehe 2000bht only... lol 80 bucks....
wait till they come to singapore! heh heh heh

So fucking CUUUTTE!!! every step i took & every turn i move! i just couldn't stop smiling!
& ooo GRIINNING like MAD!

YA YA! a KTM CAR! SUPER AWESOME!
bloody cool man!

SHIT! if u are in Bangkok! please go there! Siam Paragon! beautiful place man!
its cool & awesome man! really!

Yes fried food everyday and did i mention spicy ?

loving the shopping paradise.... cool

Oooo.... the train signs! don't see one in Singapore!

love their Ads! cool :D

Jessie & me at suan lum night market food area.
it was freaking hilarious i tell u! we were eating, listening to the thai bands singing their usual thai song and then suddenly.... ENGLISH SONGS...... fuck its damn funny, its either they get their lyrics wrong or they pronounce the words wrongly! ultimate entertainment man!

Jessie & Ang in the TUK TUK!

Ya really city of LIFE MAN!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

Encore!
Encore!
Encore!

stuck in my head

2009-06-24T17:18:00.002+08:00

my trip to bugis yesterday.... the boots in stuck in my bloody head.... i need to get it!!!
i need to get a high heel boots.... damnsss..... its in my bloody head! shit!

* think high cut to the calves ..... damns!

2009-06-24T16:51:00.002+08:00

Each time i take a bite on any chips or cookies or sweets or chocolate....
i feel guilty.....
i .... must....
...i .... must....
stoppp...... chewwiingggg!!!
....am.... getting ffattt......
Nnooooo....................
* stretch out hands

crazy wk again

2009-06-24T16:00:00.003+08:00

boom boom powww.....

lots of boom boom boom....
1 . . 2. . 3 . . 4 . . 1 . . 2. . 3 . . 4 .....

came back to work
and my colleague got these chicken from Taiwan....
suppose to be a rubber duck! ha! but it just look so wrong! LOL!

The weekend.....

2009-06-22T09:04:00.002+08:00

A damn busy weekend!!
From a hot sunny day @ the beach.... helping out in an event @ the 987fm Life's a Beach Event to booming rehearsals in the evening..... to Paya Lebar Runway Cycling 09 in the morning yet another hot sunny event therefore BURN! & Again Another Booming Rehearsal in the evening once more! DAMNS!!!

Hot pics fer ya??

Sweet..............

the letter i've been waiting for

2009-06-19T00:09:00.004+08:00

YESH YESH YESH!!!
sounds like its damn wrong. but YESH!
after 2 years coming 3 years of crazy work.

I am finally going back to school! YESH YESH YESH!!
weeeeeeeeee damn happy!
SIM RMIT Here i come.

Thought i was gonna start school on the 16 July.
but Hey.... its gonna be the 6 July. LOL!
Exciting, A new year a head........ weeeeeeeeee....
gotta thanks my aunt for helping me out! Phew .... god bless!
Sweet........

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee................ a degree in a year.... i wonder how my new class mates & friends would be like...... time table...... will i have time to work.... i better do!

*drools....

2009-06-18T16:54:00.004+08:00

Sudden craving for this... *droolss..... anyone wanna tag along ???
hmmmmm Astons or botak Jones???

My Inspiration

2009-06-18T10:07:00.001+08:00

I wanna be like her.... get me a stylist....
she's damn cool man!

& tonight...

2009-06-17T17:30:00.002+08:00

Celebrating Mr Si Pang's Birthday...

Congrates To Fala & Timo

2009-06-17T16:48:00.003+08:00

Sweet wedding really.....
also like a lil TP gathering :D cool...
Looking forward to the IMD gathering too...

heheh we both love the mango pudding :D LOL

The wedding food was fantastic la!

well, Congrates to the bride & groom again!

hmmmmm Thailand next month ??
hope my leave clear..
school starts.....

Awesome WeekEnd @ Batam

2009-06-17T16:40:00.002+08:00

The Weekend was awesome..... although i missed the audition for The New Paper New Face.... thats alright. Nothing beat an awesome day of relaxation.... at Batam.... cable Ski... duh! My Third time there and honestly its pretty good ! haha! just need to master the turning & Tugging Part. Oo Must pratice the Stand Start Or Jump Start LOL!

haha, look like Charles?? Cute monkey, and yes a lil cruel to the fellow... o well.... what can you do ?

Cool Rally Jump, nah not me! i wish but no not me!

This Dog is a damn sweet heart i tell you. The next time i'm going there, i'm bring a treat for the dog to chew on :D As long the monkey doesn't take it away! haha.... Poor fellow got a really deep cut on his paw, but as usual no one really cares..... just me & Eric lol

Sweet

2009-06-17T15:21:00.000+08:00

Love the new Skin :D

the revealing part....

2009-06-16T23:03:00.003+08:00

And........ So.... you have been seeing alot of me in long long hair for the past what 3 years? or more

well........ i shall reveal to you the latest me, funky me. sweet i love it too! for a change at least! ha! coolsss...... LOLL!!!

Ta.....DAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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i love it
i love it
i love it
i simply love it!

thanks Amy for the recommendation of a good hair dresser!
Sweet!

weeeeeee

2009-06-13T08:21:00.002+08:00

Camwhore moments :D

..

2009-06-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

i got no life.
i only make myself more miserable.
no one can make me feel worst then myself

Such an idoit

shit

2009-06-06T17:38:00.001+08:00

I suck

Damn it

2009-06-05T16:40:00.001+08:00

Where the hell is my lucky star?????

R to P, P to R

2009-06-05T13:11:00.001+08:00

The rich get richer

and the poor get poorer

haizzz

I think i feel I see i speak

2009-06-05T11:36:00.003+08:00

Having a busy and crazy week in school, putting pictures in videos, in search of wacky music, running back and forth with amendments for an upcoming event in school. Boy is it driving me nuts!

Might as well, just make a post, just to relief myself from wild thoughts and feelings in my head and heart. Home? - War zone, cold horrible war zone. Work? - Nuts and stressful, so to get those off the lil mind of mine? Chill out with my friends. Chilling out with my friends for supper and late night chats and a game of bluff. Now that was funny!

On my latest facebook update & status - tempting, tempation, sinner, evil. * some people are just born under the lucky star. Well, nah.... just realize ( hmmm i always have issue with this word ). anyway, yeah some people are just born under the lucky star. Being able to travel, getting rich and famous or plain lucky with a lovely family.

A friend of mine got a hell lot of cars. Tsk, lucky fellow. Cars - not toy cars, real big ass, fast, sleek & sporty cars. Been observing how the entire group talks and react and realize there's a damn big loop hole some where. What so i say..... like everything is so surface. For once, these people are a mega mysterious people to me. Yes they are rich fellows, but something just seemed so wrong, like something is just so missing.

My gut feelings tells me to stand guard. Or rather they don't trust me yet. Well i ain't complaining, it just a new group of friend being rather interesting, rather intriguing i must say.
Really am looking forward to find out more about them. A bunch of friends to keep, a must keep.
They either make really good clean friends or friends with a hell lot of connections.

Well, from the way they do stuff. I bet there is something on the side line. Really, its just what i see hear and observe from their facial reaction and body language.

Anyway, another thing, there's more to than meets the eye. Seemingly like a very cheerful person, a hell lot of crap but i bet there is more beyond the surface. Its pretty frustrating but i just know there's something but i just cant figure it out. I rather not question as the situation doesn't wanna be answer, always going around the bush to the miss the particular question coming along his way. They are all pretty sensative and secretive. Well........ its like a mysterious game i'm playing along.

The whole group is just like BATMAN, very hush hush... know what i mean. Its just so complicated, hmmm..... now the question is to stay or not to stay, think i should just take a step back and see the entire story for myself. Really nice bunch of people, a friend a must keep.

Annoying......... I think too much or i assume? I dunno.

* Randomness - Maybe i should take up Physcology to understand human better. Although they can never be understand. What complicated creatures, that god created.

* Scratch head....... Ok gotta run back get some stuff and yupss :D

ish... i want........

2009-06-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

I want so many things. i dunno where to start!

I want this! i want my new board & Bindings and i wanna wake wake wake!

I wanna get my new SLR camera, rather then the lil tiny camera, think i'll loook cooler with that! ha!
&!! i wanna travel!! to All over Europe, Taiwan, Thailand, Bali Australia and every where else but HOME & MY !
I need a new Cool Device, the Itouch , IPhone, a new damn phone

I want so many damn things! i dunno where to start.
I want to teleport over to the end of the rainbow and give me my POT OF GOLD!!!

* someone drop me a bomb of GOLD, a hell lot of it!!

HA!

2009-05-14T09:47:00.003+08:00

this is how i feel like right now!

Nervous!
Anxious!
Wanna scream!
Jump for JOY!
WAHAHAHA!
Smiling Ear to Ear!

So lil words...

2009-05-13T09:05:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say.

collages

2009-05-06T10:26:00.002+08:00

Teaser of updates :D

Brezzeey Morning

2009-05-06T08:55:00.003+08:00

wake board!!!
sweetss
ultimately bored!

Muhahaha, how about an update? alright, been pretty lazy to do anything with a blog. ah.... you know sometimes certain thing just die off.... lol. need to update my blog with new design too, but photobucket is just not helping me to upload the picture, coming out with all kind of errors. damn! just look thru at my 06 Post. ha! its funny, really, just bring back old memories, really, then in TP now back in TP not as a student but as Staff! ha! Irony! really. whats new? New laptop, Ok not really new, but relatively new, 2008 laptop, compare to previous one which lasted me 4 years plus plus coming 5.

what else is new? new sport? Wakeboarding rocks! give me whole body ache from the Neck to the ankles, which means i am working out the whole body!
Monday training with the boys for floorball. currently need some proper rest so haven been going but will go soon. Super crazy about wuper duper high maniac high heels, Love Aldo, Love L.A.M.B heels, Guess heels, makes me just go nuts!

alright, currently at work sooo....... later. update with more picture.

Oo, have i shown u this???

Happy Birthday Boy :D

2009-05-04T11:03:00.002+08:00

To Celebrate his birthday, we went out on a two day trip on the boat for the dog, while we wakeboard! Happy birthday my dear! HA! come join for his party in Mid May :D

New Found love

2009-04-28T09:12:00.000+08:00

Needless to Say. Ain't It?

aarrgghhh...... Puke

2009-04-21T17:41:00.001+08:00

I feel sick............

More Picturessss :D

2009-03-20T15:29:00.002+08:00

my New Header??? :D

Lomo ? Or not?? Look like ah Lol

damn it, Facebook is down..... boring.....

Feeling LOMO! :D

2009-03-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

dun't ask me. I just feel like it :D

Over the weekend........ last last last weekend

2009-03-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

Hehe, it was all in the name of FUN!!

Just Chilling Out .... :D

2009-03-18T14:38:00.002+08:00

Look Look Look!

2009-03-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

I'm So happy la! lOL! I cant Draw with freedom!! LOL! i will now & foorever
will never ever use a damn mouse again, only when needed!!!!

Like Finally!!

2009-03-17T22:54:00.004+08:00

t
After This Broke Down. that cos me almost 600 BUCKS,
and using it for almost 5 years......

I had to use the damn mouse
and i am dying with it.

Couldn't tahan it anymore
and FINALLY i got this.

that was only 300 bucks! Phew....
but i miss my Intus 3, much cooler & Nicer but,
i Budget.... and its good enough

:D
KISSES love it!!

My pathetic mousy moments are OVER!!! OVER I TELL U!!! .
No more ill fatal stuck up fix and stucky mouse! and rigid & static movements...
Curves here i come!!!

WOOOOHOOO. thank god for better technology!!

TSK!

2009-02-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

I am feeling so annoyed
like seriously...

FUCK! O GOSH!
everything lil thing pisses me off

Hate it when people talk to them self,
and when i go "HUH" feels like i'm the one who is fucking deaf.
or simply is just heartless, like no emotion know what i mean ?

Is it so hard to have a normal conversation
damn it! Feel like a fucking loser
damn it! fuck fuck fuck!

SERIOUS.
So heartless,
No fucking manners,
Never being able to speak properly
is it so hard to talk to me?
Cant be any fucking patience?
No Sudden Hug
No loves

Always seems to be mumbling to yourself
and yet i turn out being the fucking deaf one.

why am i so nice?

Its is so hard to ask for some love?
some appreciation?

Just simply selfish, No Emotion & Fucking Impatience

eeeeeeeiiisssshhhhhh

FUCK!
Cant have any small talk?

Its always about you you you.

Everyone around me is fucking annoying me

ALSO
The one at home is simply nuts!
Yes, how pathetic is she? Always being bullied? always the Poor thing one
No one is as pathetic as she is. She is the one & only poor poor soul in the whole fucking world.
Everyone is SO against her

AWWWWW how fucking sad, well you know what
i don't give a fucking shit.
Stop Asking for fucking sympathy, Stop being all poor & shit about it
GROW UP!

Speechless
People around me just pisses me off!

I do not always turn people down, Or do i?
something it is just so hard to get people out
busy with work, tired or simply i dunno
all sort of excuse
and when i go " SHIT i totally forget"
i get the " Ah Expected, I Always cancel it"
Great really? thanks

two buddies Just toooo busy with girl friend
girlsfriends too busy with boyfriend

Fuck thats life
Get a life Jill!

On My Freaking Nerves!

2009-02-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

Just to let this out!

too many CHIN-CHONG (PRC) People everywhere!!
Wanna come singapore,
FOR HEAVEN SAKE
LEARN some basic
F**king English!
Dun come tell me in mandarin " can you speak chinese? "
Ya even if i can, i don't want too!
So F**K!
wanna work, go learn some bloody english!
& Don't call me on the damn phone for some stupid survey
shit cos i am so not gonna entertain you! Annoying!
anyway in the 1st place who in F**K gave u my number!

ANNOYING! ISH!

f**K.
Singaporeans also need
some proper customer service lessons!
don't get it! ISH! annoying!
Specially those older people out there

Ok let me teach u how to be in the front line

1. Smile
2. Smile even if you r having a bad day cos i cant be bothered if you lost one side of your ear rings, who give a damn!
3. Talk properly nicely
4. Dun give stupid black face if you wanna work i do not owe you any fucking money ok!
5. cant do all these, don't work in the front line!

ISH!

I maybe having PMS but its true.
Just gets on my Nerve each time i see one!
damn it!

High Up!

2009-01-24T11:54:00.005+08:00

Dad's back for the week and CNY. O Happy Nui (Cow in Chinese) Year to all Out there!!
Done and over with Zocards. It was fun, really, and stressful at the same time!! Anyway! went for a hike last sunday to the tree top walk at Macritchie. It was really a long walk with a lot of stairs, ups and down and height!!!!

AWESOMMMEE

2009-01-13T23:49:00.001+08:00

WOOO HOO! it was AWESOME! really! good. awesome!!! hmmmmmm
COOL!

Uniform PARTEHH

2009-01-11T03:16:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Babe!

HA! At Mel's Partyy :D LOL
Boy was it Hilarious! What a bunch of JOKERS

The PARTEH was a success. it was awesome! good job babe! good job to all the uniform people! LOL! A hell lot of explicit pictures.... cannot upload if not sure kena! ha

Tp Alumin Night :D

2009-01-10T17:26:00.001+08:00

All time favourite

UPDATEESSS

2009-01-10T10:15:00.006+08:00

AAaahhh... helloww people! been really really busy! yes i've MIA!
busy working, busy slacking, just busy busy or rather just plain lazy!
okay! here's some updates, Been thru few parties.... Birthday, Christmas & new Years eve. Tonight.... Mel's birthday and Donvanan get a friend's sister getting married. OH and latest news my friend is getting married too! COOL! at fort canning park. cant wait! ha.... Pictures? Here we go......

A night outing wth Timmy & wayne after Zocards Fashion Show
Cousin got married...

Party At ZoukOut!! WoooHOO!

Lots of presents
Christmas Party with Zocards...

Then came my birthday, at the chalet...
Yes the highlight of the night. they guys actually lost their actual clothing, that was hilarious!
Then to brewerks with my zocards colleagues...

so sweet of them to get me my strawberry cheese cake!! this year i had all the cakes i wanted HA!
and NYE ( new years eve ) at Selina's and down to IC Pasir Ris to play TABOO and laugh through the night!

is

2008-11-09T13:51:00.000+08:00

Sick & tired of Singapore
need to get out of this country
make fast cash
rich!
damn it!

Super Funny

2008-10-30T17:06:00.002+08:00

O my Gosh. O my Gosh, this is so funny!! & cute la lol

2008

2008-10-30T14:43:00.001+08:00

2008 is a good year for me said Mr Feng Shui Man!
and true enough it is!

Cool SPH just called they wanna hired but i'm not ready!
Got My Zomedia aka ZoCards. Future Zocards will be by me me me. Lol
Hmmmm Cool Shit :D

Emirates Interview on Sat
New Tattoos In 2008
:D wWweeeess

A new Hobby

2008-10-28T15:05:00.004+08:00

Woah! i like my new expensive hobby :D
wakeboarding is fun fun fun. i love the sea, love the wind, the speed.
adrenaline rush ballz.......
Its fun & extreme! haha, lucky i working ah! ;D

damn this a hot, smoking hot;D

*faints "D

*hint Hint, my birthday is coming :D
just get 20 People. to share my birthday present! i just need one present :D hahaha
will do :D
LOL! really!

Hmmmm, Liquid Force, Melissa 134,
Perfered Colours, Pink, White Or Black :D hahaha
Angel 134 also can :D

but i prefer Melissa :D
with Nice Bindings, and vest from Billabong or Roxy also can !

hehehehe, dream long long jill :D

Skype II

2008-10-28T13:47:00.003+08:00

I skype my sister & frank! man i miss the dogs! sooo cute :D
I miss my lil girl the most, sunkist.

so cute la, Sunkist, Bao Mien & the two lil girls all sleeping together :D

The Internet

2008-10-26T00:27:00.004+08:00

I've Been Skyping.

the virgin moments with Selina on Skype! hahah she took my virgin moment on skype! :D

then it was Min.... LOL!then

I've got my Cable television

& then

I've got an awesome interview this weekend. how can i possibly miss it???

Cool shit :D

The Unlimited LIST

2008-10-25T20:58:00.004+08:00

There is So many things on my list I've ought to do. Hmmmm tsk.......

* Travel around the world, see the many wonders and famous landscape of the earth!
* Cabin Crew in the top airlines
* get a degree in design
* get a degree in psychology
* get a driving licences
* own a Mini Copper one fine day
* Earn at least 5 - 7k a month
* be filthy rich
* be famous, A famous/ well known designer/ illustrator :D
* live the glamorous days for the rest of my life till i part from earth
* Live overseas, Be it the USA, UK, Australia. As long i am far far away from Singapore
* Own a few property
* Get back my address, poh huat road. 546777 :D
* be a happening auntie in the future
* sporty and happening all my life
* Work with MTV USA one day :D
* own many many dogs
* Have my own limited collectables design character sold in thousands of dollars
* Swim with the dolphins
* Marine biologist one day.
* My own Doggie business
* Be skinny & tone & fit all my life!!
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and honestly the list is never, NEVER ending list

is just at the back of my head! ha! it just keep adding on.

anyway just had another talk with selina over skype again! damn she's lucky to be in UK!
i too wanna be overseas, far away from singapore. far away from the horrible stress life that we singaporean lead !! damn it! why singapore so stressful! ISH!

Batam Over the Weekend

2008-10-23T22:48:00.004+08:00

Trip to Batam over the weekend, was AWESOME!! but, wakeboarding/cable ski is a super super expensive sports tsk tsk, but it was fun still! ahaha, did hell lot of stupid things there that you cant do in singapore cable ski. HA! ok enough of words and more pictures :D

HAhA! this was funny & OUCH! at the same time! lol
" I'm COMING!"
sounds so wrong!

i tell you! this dog is a big time sweet heart! lol so cute!

boards boards boards

Me & Charles! haha! my sister's BESTIE!

Formula One

2008-10-08T21:38:00.005+08:00

This Entry is abit slow! but HEY! i am still updating my site ok! anyway yup.
the Formula one was awesome man! :D well, being part of it was good enough. Looked throught the entire internet and saw remarks on the grid girls.
first of all, we are not what ever race queen you call it.
and it is sad to say but singaporeans are whoever in the world are just so unforgiving
and they complain about everything. Not all the grid girls are ugly. Well, It is just not easy being a grid girl ok.

what ever it is, Mission Accomplished, i Met the racers! that was awesome enough, specially being face to face with the racer and the car!

The highlight of Formula one : the Awesome " ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM" did i say that it was F**king LOUD! COOL LA! then i met Lewis Hamilton and The Japanese F1 Driver IS BLOODY CUTE! hahaha DAMN! awesome serious man! *FAINTS! someone pick me up! SIGH :D

Anyway behind the scene with the Grid Girls :D

DO you SEE THE TRACK?? thats where the zroom zroom zroom is!! :D

Pls Excuse the Slipper, lol So ta GLAM

When Life gets a lil bit too boring!!!

2008-09-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

LOL! what. i am just entertaining myself! yes yes, get me into woodbridge! LOl....

when life gets all too boring!!!

you just do stupid things just like when.......

When life gets a lil bit too boring with Selina, Huimin & me.... this is wat we do, CAM whore.

Usually with camera, this time with my laptop! hahaha

Complicating?

2008-09-03T01:42:00.000+08:00

Here i am, 1.42am, typing. I switch off my laptop awhile ago and then i took a shower and in the shower, i was thinking and sorting thru my feelings, love. I told myself ok, i need to type this or i will not know how to explain how i feel. Well, in another words, i just needed to get my feelings out. you know what i mean, its like how every year or every few months i would sure to have some entry saying, "Love is Complicating" and there i go typing the same shit all over again.

Honestly, i do not know how to feel or what to feel. Or rather i have no luck in love. I just got out from 2 yrs relationship and the pain i went thru, is something i have not ever felt before, the pain, shiver, disappointment and the anger within, the moment the truth was out, the hurtful and painful truth.

I told myself to get up from the pain and get myself busy, just to ease the pain, laugh over it, get busy over it, but some how it still seems to haunt me. The pain never left. Being nice doesn't get you anywhere. I learn not to fully love, to give your 110% of love, to put in too much effort, to ignore signs, if i do, i will only fall every hard, and thats what happen to me.

Only when one loses the one, he or she will only start to regret after playing a lil bit and then releasing its already too late then. By then it would be really hard to save the painful and slaughtered bleeding heart. Till now, the heart still bleeds.

Everyday i wonder, am i really that unlucky in love, or its just not the right time, Will i ever get over it?

I just want to be busy, be happy and just laugh over it, but it still haunts at the end of the day when i am alone. Alone in my room, on my bed, trying to fall asleep, the memories only start to appear again, the heart starts to bleed again.

is it better to be love or to love? something that no one can really answer if you really think through it.

What do you, or another words, i want in love. I maybe still young but at least i still need to know, i learn from the hard way.
Do i want someone who can just act the role of a boyfriend but doesnt make me feel love. Or rather, i feel secure around a guy who can be a boyfriend but doesnt show love. Acting the role like, An empty shell, a guy who acts like one but doesnt express anything. Who hardly knows how to sayang, Manja, accept my flaws and just love me, to communicate to talk to listen and to joke with. Not expressing not talking is painful. ... ah you know what i mean

Or be around a person, who can makes me smile, laugh, love me, acts like a bofriend, to manja me, to sayang me but the only thing is..... ( here comes the part) there is no trust from the person. or rather he made me lost trust him. A person who broke my heart over and over again and then stabbing it over and over again, made me cry for almost 1 full day, in another words almost 24hrs non stop. Crying every night over the painful incident? made me lost total trust, Some one whom i love so dearly but yet broke my heart and tore it and put into the shredder machine. and then disperse into thin air.

He trys hard, but yet he fails, cos i am afraid

I try to get it over the pain but i cant..... i still am in pain, i try to heal it, but now its making it worst. I must get busy i must not think..... so complicating....

I hate love I love Love. The Pain is intriguingly painful.

OR am i asking too much in love. am i asking too much
or am i just afraid to be badly hurt again.

MAYBE its all karma, its just karma..... i am unlucky in love.... sigh
i wanna be numb numb in the hearrt. i wan to be a heartless bitch again. to hurt and to F off.
nah, too childish, F just get busy with life.....

Its so hard to find the right love. think about it....Its not hard, its easy but its very tiring, it tires me out, it sucks the energy out.

I dont want to be hurt.

I rather love a dog and knows it will definately love me back.

I want to fly far away from all this.

I just...........

..............

tooo emotional too much pain too much feeling

no i am not having PMS, its tiring to love.
i hate this, i am tired to love. i am tired of everything.
no much pain.

The aching heart.

Love is like a See-Saw. Its hardly equally Balance, Balance only when no one sits onto it,
if not its aways Up & down. Either Be Love or To love. Never Love all Together.

I fully now understand the meaning of losing someone trust is the hardest to gain back.

I love and Hate the feeling of love.
I hate the feeling i have, the muffled & pain Heart, each time it beats, i feel like i cant breathe.

Speechlessss.......

losing interest

2008-09-03T00:46:00.001+08:00

when u get tired & bored at work..........

Pooly wooly

2008-08-28T01:48:00.001+08:00

when 3 insane girls get in to the pool :D

lol.......

Aww

2008-08-28T01:04:00.001+08:00

I got a Macbook Pro.
I got a Macbook Pro
I got a Macbook Pro weeeeeee
yes i know i bit slow but hey at least i got the latest edition
Niakakaka and did a lil testing with the webcam HAHA

Plus looking thru the old picture and stumble upon nostagic moments :D
Specially with two girls whom are very special to me! the girls who grew up with me, live just next door, play at the playground everyday after 5pm, exploring retardeds drain and serwages, playing pranks on an norway kid, from kids to a typical teen and now to 3 wonderful ladies :D

since i was pri 6, since huimin was pri 5 and since sel was pri 2. cool :D hahaha
that was like in ....... 1997. WHOA 11 years of friendship and counting down :D

sisters for life :D

Singapore Version of Lord of the Ring

2008-08-10T14:35:00.003+08:00

Icka & me

Put us & the Models, we look like lord of the rings ! pretty funny, hahaha
Pictures took at the amara Fashion show. Man the models R so pretty! I look fat. damn!
Yes, this is part of my job, working at white weddings.......
this poster gave me so much problem!!! just 2 hrs before the show and i got it printed! PHEW!

lord of the rings :D

zhen zhen, me, huimin, hazel, Icka & claudia :D

NDP 08

2008-08-10T12:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Day Singapore!!!
the parade was cool shit hahaha! :D

Alvin & me.....
Its funny how army boys are....... LOL........ right amy? hahah
we dont even know them! niakakaka

Pictures Updates :D Part II

2008-07-08T17:39:00.003+08:00

YES! i am ugly & i am in SINGTEL GRID GIRLS! HAHAH

Our 1st road show at Suntec.

Party at Oosh for all 44 girls :D

& we party at St james ;D

The girls around me hot right HAHHA
then come down to F1 itself and check them out :D

Pictures Updates :D Part I

2008-07-08T17:18:00.003+08:00

she the girl my bestie my buddy :D

People I miss from Wing Tai. The Crazy girls i met at work :D
its fun working at maxstudio, although it was abit no brainer kinda job. but the life was fun with them around LOL!

Life's been a bitch

2008-07-08T17:14:00.002+08:00

Every day is a learning day for me.
i learn from stupid mistake i do and i learn from it
i pick my self up from the shit i do and i learn from it.

well move on with life.
find different alternative route in life.
don't just stick to one.
have different plans just in case shit happens.
in another word shit always happen.

its good to set a high goal in life
but don't just keeps your hope too high in life , cause it will only bring you great
disappointment in life.

so i live life like every other day.
people come and go. you learn something new everyday
you learn and get smarter each day

live life to the fullest.
be postive
not negative :D

hmmmmmm

2008-05-23T20:27:00.002+08:00

Done and over with the retail life.
I am finally doing something i've been dying to do for a damn long long time.
YEAH! niakakaka, busy with piles & piles of projects....... tskk
will update the blog as soon as possible

O i got into the 49 GridGals...... Lol

Misses.....

2008-05-19T05:34:00.003+08:00

i miss the feeling of being in love
i miss being in love
i miss having the fuzzy wuzzy feeling
i miss having the Sigghhhsss Feeling
i feel lonely at times
even if there is a bunch of guys around me
but i still dun get butterflies in my tummy
only some one makes me feel that one
just some one.......
I miss looking at someone and that particular person
just makes me smile non stop
i miss that feeling
i just miss falling in love
but i dont miss falling out of love
i dun wan to get hurt again
love.... tsk tsk tsk

Blabbering Shopping Spree

2008-05-16T01:04:00.001+08:00

Super Major Shopping Spree, this May!
Do you know that topshop is having a big time sales!
but with Wing Tai Staff, we get 20% off from the discounted items!
WOOOHOOO........

Check out my major Shopping Spree!
i am so ready to work with style on Monday :D

2 shirt, 2 vest, 1 flats, 1 3/4 pants, 1 black leggings, 1 waist belt, 1 long collar dress, 1 120gb hard drive, 1 multi hue razor top, 1 checked pull over, 1 crop cardigan jacket.
I am soooooo Ready for work
man i hate GSS (Great Singapore Sales, SO EVIL!)

Offical Start

2008-05-15T05:19:00.002+08:00

A new Look a new theme

Just blabber how i can and how much i want!

Here are some blabbering images :D

WHOO HOOO

2008-05-14T11:03:00.005+08:00

Its raining outside now,
damn it, i should be like sleeping right now la!
anyway
starting my new job on monday!
YEAH! ok exciting!! finally no more retail! I really hope to learn from this job.

weeeeeeeee.......... go to the site under the image to learn more about the campagin coming in oct :D

www.OneSingapore.Org
Learn more about the millennium Development Goals and join in the campaign

Common Problems in relationship

2008-05-10T12:18:00.002+08:00

You know. its just so funny how everyone seems to be having the same problem in their relationship. is that not why when u watch a movie like "P.S i love you", you will go like, " HEY! this scene looks so damn familiar, it looks and feels the exactly like my relationship"

Ok key point of a relationship.
- communication, COMMUNICATION (you know like talking things out?)
- trust, TRUST TRUST (being paranoid is NOT TRUST! cut some slack dude!)
- faith (ok quite similar to point 2)
- accepting all flaws (ok if the person has this HHumongous nose on his face, and then 2 months down the road, u go "ILL, so disturbing and you tell your partner this "baby, can you plsssss go for a nose job?" THT IS NOT accepting his/her flaws! thts changing him/her!!)

and the very common problem in people's relationship [including myself....] would be..... *drum roll......... COMMUNICATION!!!!!!!!

people always tend to assume their partner
ETC. "aiya she sure like that one"
"sigh, i think......"
"she/her should be...."
Go read some english grammer book and you will know what is assume all about!

and if you do not know what assume means,
it means "[verb] take to be the case or to be true; accept without verification or proof; "I assume his train was late" "
got it from a online dictionary ok!

anyway back to assume, where was it....... ah ok......
HELLO! dun assume!!! if you want your relationship to work out. TALK. dont be afraid to talk.
talking doesn't mean breaking up you know.

*hint* thats why my recent relationship just ended, thanks to communication & some people is slowly starting to regret it! HA! too bad! you've spoilt my market already... PUI!

anyway ya, feeling all heavy in the heart, thinking too much in your head when ya alone. Well speak it out. and if your partner have the tendency to NOT LISTEN and CUTTING YOU into your conversation like *for myself, ITS NOT ON PURPOSE OK!! i dont know la!!*
or changing random conversation. well you know! tell the person, cause she or he wouldn't know their bad habit till someone tells them! and HUMAN BEING needs to be reminded at least at few time to get it into their head. i'm sure after awhile they'll get it!!

keeping quiet, for a long time, not interested to talk on phones anymore, don't know what to say..... AH having those problem ? now thats communication problem! - NOT GOOD!

so usually people will just turn to someone else, to talk too, usually its the opposite sex and ITS NOT A GOOD SIGN! because you are looking for some else to fill up the missing gap and holes!
once again, its noooot good...... cause its only leading you to a danger and devilicious zone!!

YOU CANT HAVE THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS!

ok this goes out to all the both male & female ah!
anyway........well....... ya
today is all about communication problems
thats more! will write on it more!
gotta head to work soon
just felt like i need to write this out! soooooooo

hehehe, feel like a love doctor!

MAN i should be a love doctor, a love consultant/advicer
and a love physcologist! hahahaha

anyway later people!
JILLS BACK IN THE BUILDING!

O and i am a grand MOTHER

2008-05-08T01:42:00.003+08:00

A furry dog grand mother of cos! haHAHA!

Sunkist gave birth to 3 puppies! CUTE!

hehehehe :D
dun u just wanna go awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww....... so adorable?

hey yo

2008-05-08T01:35:00.003+08:00

hey people. ok did not know! people still do come check the blog out, well been busy.
settling problems. getting over the ex boyfriend, living life everyday, making lots of money, partying like a wild animal, and ya! facebook maddness, o right making more working network and learning what i really want to do in the future. My career of cause! well, i'm young.

still waiting for the freaking paper from St cloud state uni reply for fall semester!
and hope i get it. O did i say my freelance is doing well at the moment. hoping to build my name

ChillyJilly Studio.......

or maybe just jill
or gillian

what ever!

*on the side line,
coping pretty well with the ex,
but you know i still do miss him, silly huh
stupid i know
but i just miss being with him.
i guess he dont really deserve me huh..... tsk........

sigh..... why did had to be this way.....

28 June.... a day i should be smiling and looking forward to.......

thanks to some slut!

alright, pray my career will run smoothly i hope

PMS

2008-02-29T15:44:00.000+08:00

fucking pissed. nahbei cheebye
why so fucking racist
fucking hell. stop nagging la! ASSHOLE.
fuck money fuck life fuck everything!

hellooo

2008-02-23T20:17:00.003+08:00

trip to kl with colleagues :D

i am back to blogging I THINK.

now single! broke up with tht fellow, ok his name is justin.
moving on with life & working my ass off!

o! plus getting back to sch asap!

where i work dun tell u
just wait for more updates!

au voir.
anything facebook me!
niakakakakaka :D
kisses!

FACK U

2007-09-17T18:01:00.000+08:00

CHEEBYE MEI GUO. aka. US & A. CHEEBYE! CUSTOM! bloody LAN JIAO! nI NABEI! CHEEBYE!!!! CHEEBYE KIA! KNN! THINK U FUCKING BIG AH! LAN JIAO ANG MOH NAN!
KNN. CHEEBYE ANG MOH NAN! LAN LIAO Custom Lan JiaO PEOPLE! CHEEBYE!

Conquer

2007-09-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

THE LIBRARY!!

I've got Skype...

2007-09-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

ADD ME!
JillPadi, you know!
for the sick of Free calls n video webcam! weeeeeee

Thanks Leland.

Justin & Kenny..

2007-09-10T03:05:00.001+08:00

THIS IS FOR U! hahaha

Lamest Show on Earth

2007-09-10T02:39:00.001+08:00

I present to u, Monty Python & the Holy Grail...... Funny Lame Shit i tell u HA!

just go to youtube and watch more of it. F**king funny & lame, for those who have not since it!

Jap I like

2007-09-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

Japan week with Huimin at AMK hub - Ichiban.

the freaking swordfish Sashimi is freaking FAT LA! muahaha, so sweet so..... sighhh......
Whats a meal without Dessert. Nice......
and of course head back to Min's place, and thanks to her mummy, for the Ang bao. she and her Attension Seeking Hamster. Not my kinda pet though.

N with Justin at Tampines - Genki . Yummyyy. Ok order almost the same thing i had with huimin. For your info, it wasn't on the same day.....

My Hot Bf! HA!

I cant help it la! i just love salmon with Rice, & Sashimi, its so......... EEEE..... * mouth drooling... i will so so miss this meal over in the states man!
man how can u not love SUSHI! its all thanks to the influence of Mr Justin LIM! WEEEEE.

anyway more updates of food. Had major food galore, * BABI GALORE ( Isk,Faridah & My favourite pastime) at chomp chomp. pictures still not upload so.... hehehehe........

Sigh..... 6 more days to Flight......

New Phrase Huh

2007-09-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

Friendster is dying!
FaceBook is Growing....
WTF! every one have FACEBOOK 2????

ok add me then THATS if only i know u!
HAhAhaHAHahhaHAHAHAHAHHAa

One week More....

2007-09-09T22:16:00.000+08:00

Over the week end, of course, time with My Dearest. and he got a com. Congrates dear.
and thanks for the Batt. FINALLY my com can finnaly run with out power for 3 freaking hrs! BLOODY HELL! and this too! thanks love. it really mean alot to me.....

Tempting tempting to Buy a new freaking laptop yesterday, when i visit the Mac Shop, the sales guy still remember me! LOL! Loyal To Mac n Only Mac! Muahahahha....... Anyway..... ya....... I love my dearest laptop is damn cool la! Got so many COOL sample game and of course my favourite game,

MAHJONG TITANS!

this new game, PRIME SUSPECT. IS FUN! man i can play it for hours too bad it was only a 60mins game sample! IF ONLY! lol!!!

If u Love Playing with FIND the OBJECTS then i can confirm chop chop u will love this game!

if mac have that game i will definately get it man! Once again! Its MaC! but this time i shall try the power for the Webcam! lol!
Niakakakkaka.....

REMINDER, Leaving in one weeks time, 16 sept, flight at 6am.
farewell party on friday...... venue to be confirm

WAHAHHAAA

2007-09-04T04:45:00.001+08:00

YEAH! MACdonalds Breakfast! WAHAhahAhAHahahA

time to zZzZzZz...... hugs & kisses with sunkist :D

I'm Hot

I finally got thru with Ava! WOOOOHOOOOO! MUAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

Bo Liao

2007-09-04T03:26:00.000+08:00

its 3.26am. what do u expect!!! Breadfast is in 30 MINS TIMe!! WAHAHAHAHAHA

Lifted

2007-09-04T03:08:00.001+08:00

Fucking Funny! WAtch it.. short animation b4 Rat-a-too-ee! the movie!

If u love potter u will love this!
N this too!

Alonely

2007-09-04T02:56:00.000+08:00

Lonely I'm so Lonely!

WaHa!

2007-09-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

SUPPORT HIM ah! lol at star search la! my good friend Jackson. k la i dont forget to vote for Marcus & desmond. MUSt MUST.!

Once again at macdonalds! LOL! we all having midnight maddness! HAHAHHA

SO FUCKING PISSED!!

2007-09-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

CHEE BYE!!!! i TRIED 6 fucking time on my com to fucking pay things thru AVA and fucking does go thru, tried my friends i repeat FRIENDSSSSS with SSSSS. that means more then one friend COM AND it DOeS NOT FUCKING WORK! FUCK AVA WEBSITE LA! CHEE BYE!!! CHEEE BYEEE!!!

F**K

2007-09-04T01:57:00.000+08:00

I HATE AVA WEBSITE! so Cheese PIE! So Annoying i tried to pay online like 6 - 10 times i cant fucking go thru. Cheese PIE

watched and gonna watch.....

2007-08-30T18:50:00.000+08:00

Watch this with Selina. Huimin, & Justin..... nice.....
lol......

Beware the stare of Mary Shaw,
she had no children only dolls,
and if you see her in you're dreams,
be sure you never ever scream

....Creepy.....

ANYWAY..... And i'm gonna watch this later at tampines GV.... WOoOhoooo! WeeeheEeee

currently

2007-08-30T17:36:00.000+08:00

Trying to get the hang of Facebook & Uploading frreaking Pictures..... fuck it man, when u dun have net at home its HORRIBLE! F**K

Wedding preparation...

2007-08-30T17:07:00.001+08:00

check out sunkist dress.... so cute right...... lol..... weeeeee..........
Comex starts today.... man time to go shop on electronic items weeee

anyway, my sis bought these shoe for me, from Aldo.... hot yo!

these are not my leg!

this time.....

2007-08-30T16:11:00.000+08:00

can u guess?

2nd series of dog design... :D

2007-08-30T15:36:00.001+08:00

2nd Series of Dog Designs, for my company over there :D

Video

2007-08-30T15:01:00.000+08:00

CoOl aye...... Video i made for the outing session of Whosgoing 401 outing... to st james, mono....
enjoy......

Back...

2007-08-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

Hello..... to all......

my surprise from me to ma love....

anyway..... been awefully sick over the last week.... i think i caught the virus from Sean..... SEE LA! why u cough cough so much! eat chilli crap untill i also kena sia! anyway, i am fine now..... just still coughing like mad..... better go take my Flu Jab next week so i wont kena the Cold air Flu..... man..... heard thats worst!

ANYWAY.... thats why i haven been online for a really long time and ok.... its only a week anyway.... so i am BACK!!!! to updatee the blog with more interesting stuff and images and recent updates of outing and everything....

hmmmm..... did i tell u went i to the zoo on monday! weeeeeeeee........ animal animal animal!!! SO CUTE! AND WILD and Eekkyyy and insects like hissing cockoraches that freak the shit out of me, the rattling of the rattle snake in the thank shock the shit out of me and I SAW POT BELLY PIG! so damn cute!!! man i think working the zoo is so damn cool...... Muahahaha!!! Up close and personal with the animals.....

and all this is thanks too Baby!!! THANKS LUV!!!!
took hell lot of animal pictures but hardly any humans! which is me & luv..... hehehehe...... hehehhee.....

its funny how i always end up taking pictures of their baac

then, on sat, met up with the girls to chill out, which girls? Selina & Min Min.... thanks to min min we three go MANTOU.... muahaha.... so cute sia!
Oo.... YES ETHAN! and Aaron! here are the pictures from last last friday of KTV session to St James at Mono..... gonna upload the videos at st james too on youtube or maybe here la! hahahha

Pictures from St james Mono.....

hmmmm.... time really fly by so fast.... i can just remember when i kept telling everyone

" 4 weeks more leh! and i am gonna fly! quick quick quick ask me out!"

and now its really 2 weeks left to go.....

2 weeks left to go..... and i will miss u dearly... i love you so so much....

La Vie En Rose.

2007-08-17T19:12:00.000+08:00

Just a rough idea to let u know who is Edith Piaf! :D WOOT.
thats what playing on my Imeem. I love french Music. so Nice! weeeeeeee

real video of her
just like the movie it self. AMAZING.....

this is the movie trailer!
About her life...

another version of La Vie en rose

NICE!