.:: Blabbering ChillyJilly ::.

Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession
Love me or hate me, that is the question
If you love me then, thank you!
If you hate me then, fuck you!

Tuesday, 10 July 2007 @ 3:44 pm

Words are scary

"the things people say about another person can really change the mindset and thinking of one person. Something i just dunno how much i can trust a person. if u don't then, you would feel really really lonely.

I hate to start all over again when it comes to relationship, if i ever lose my current relationship.. i don't know how i can ever start all over again, so much effort to put in, taking time to know a person, learning how one person would be like, what he likes and doesn't like, Aiya, its just so troublesome to start to re-boot.

Man, A relationship is really like a freaking Computer, when one hangs or something you need to reboot, and then from there u need to find out the problem, Taking time to solve the problem, if it doesn't go well, just Re-boot, and wait for the com to slowly take its time to go to the desktop. GET IT ???

Ok nevermind, HEADACHE, thinking about so many things.... Flying off the america makes me think alot of the relationship, but i just don't where to start. i dunnot if i can trust myself, or even trust the other side. sorry babe, but its just how i feel CURRENTLY ah, when i fly off, it will be so hard.

you know, it is hard to be compared with ex girlfriends, even if i dun hear it or see it, sometimes i feel i ain't good enough compared to the ex Gf. why i feel this way, it can be really tiring, when one hand Puts in more effort then the other does....... like a Slanted See-saw. thats how i see love is like, it usually is Up & down, never equal on the same line, not saying it is impossible but usually, it hardly happens.

but you know what is more upsetting to hear from those "words" - This is gonna sound really shallow, when one agrees to his/her friend, that the friend says that the girl friend ain't hot enough, and the boyfriends kinda agree to it, WA! sad to hear abt that, No matter how much, anyone say how Ugly my Bf is Or How fuck Up he is, This is an example, i will always try to cover up for him, NOT agree, well why agree, cos one Expectation of having a gf looks is too high, as in a Model looking Gf Qualification Is need, MAn, that is shallow girlfriend, THEN why not go get a Trophy gf instead, wouldn't it be better.

Man, i am annoyed by alot of things,.........

so so

on the verge of having a broke heart...."

See this is why, WORDS ARE SO MANIPULATING!!!