CSI - also stands for Can't stand it. ok so i cant stand it no more. i just don't understand why am i so nice. being nice don't bring you no where. it only cause more pain. more hurt. more question asking why do i get this in return. being MR nice guy don't bring you no where. for example. being nice to people, being extremely paitence and still they don't see it, and climb all over your head. when you start being nasty, they say you've change for the worst. why be nice. its just me, or maybe i've try to change into a better person. sometime i don't understand myself. when i be too nice, they don;t see it, when i get nasty its a diff story. eeeeee.......... i dun wanna get nasty.
great example, when things get nasty, i try to hide the angry side or petty side of me, pretending its all right, i'm fine. ok, i guess it ain;t healthy, but i dun like to get angry, cause when i do, i get nasty and i get nasty for a really long time. its hard to blow the fire off me, when it starts. too chim? aiya, i just needed to spill out. sigh. i just cant stand it. being too nice to ma friends, i feel they just don't it, or maybe there's some thing wrong with me. do i look like i will judge people. tsk tsk. more like i get judge for the stuff i do. tsk tsk, so many things happening around me, stress, friends, family and so on. shit. hmm or maybe i should tell this to me self . JILL GET A LIFE. JILL YA THINKING TOO MUCH. JILL get BUSY.
hey i guess thats why i always try to get my self really busy. to get things off my mind. or am i thinking too much for myself? but ah never mind. i am simply ranting too much crap. i don;t even know what i am talking about. aiya PEACE OUT! later. i go stone.

aSSHole! i got depression sia. CRazy jill. think happy thoughts