.:: Blabbering ChillyJilly ::.

Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession
Love me or hate me, that is the question
If you love me then, thank you!
If you hate me then, fuck you!

Thursday, 31 August 2006 @ 1:13 am

tired

I am afraid to get tired
I am afraid to lose it
I am tired of waiting
waiting of calls - not when busy
but when calls to tell not to wait

calls to cancel the plan
calls to say you cant make it
calls you say you'll call back but didn't

i understand not getting calls while schooling & working & having productions
but i do not understand
why i don't get calls to tell me not to wait
not to wait to wait

do things you know can do.
don't do things you don't know if you can do it.
only do it if you are sure
sure you can make it.

i want to be busy
but my friends are busy too.
i don't want to turn to other guys
to make a bad impression
i dont like that.
its not good

the number of best girls friends i have is limited
the number of guy best friends are limited too
the number of strangers - plenty - not good - well not excatly interested.
i'm picky

i just want my 26.

everything seems so silent
a peaceful sea - no storm no waves just a smooth smooth current

too chim?

i want to scream.
i'm keeping the pretty moments to spent it with you.
i'm sorry
this is just how i feel.
i know i should understand

but i am just frustrated with the calls
calls to tell you cant make it - i wont be mad
i will understand

i dun wan to wait.

i still love my 26

i'm trying my best. To be as patience as possible
well i feel i am
sorry if i am too demanding.

i'm disturb.
i cant sleep
i wait still
waiting.......

*Heart Aches

there is so much i want to say
so much inside
too much to type
to0 much to explain

i don't know where to start.
haiz.

give me 5 mins
and i appreciated every seconds.

is this retribution
retribution to make me grow up and learn
learn from the mistakes i did before

I'm Typeless - I have too much to say
the heart Aches - I feel immature
the eyes tears - shit i think its PMS

but do i Blame it on PMS all the time?
is it really PMS all the time
OR am i simply moody due to so much things going on around me

i am greatly disturb by eveything going around me.
situations coming one after another
nothing seems to die down.

man i can type forever.
i talk to my self

who else can i talk to
i'm alone
i feel alone - at home - no one to talk too.
just my dog - who doesnt reply back to me - just stare at me - wag her tail and WOOF
but it make me smile still - better then nothing :D