I read a book a couple of days ago and it made me think about my life and my surroundings.

you may have a million friends and acquaintance
but something i have to keep in mind
everytime i walk home, i have to depend on myself
i cannot depend on my friends and acquaintance all the time
they cant be there for me 24/7

i feel lonely at times
never call acquaintance out
not close ma - awkward you know
so i cant call my close friends out either
it is abit hard to get them.
they have their own life too

it is so much easier to get friends out when i was a lil bit more younger
like primary school
then came secondary school
friends seems to slowly to fate away leaving a handful of them.
then you carry on with life and head to tertiary school
and then everyone get busy with life.

then you start to get lonely.
hmmmmm......
is this life ?

i try to be there for friends all the time
whenever they needed me or wanted to go out.
i never turn down their offer.
but seems like its not the same way for me :D
i am always asking people out. not the other way round.

sometimes
i feel unwanted by friends
i feel lonely.

i need my friends.
i hate to be alone
i dun like to be depress and down
i wan to be happy and busy all the time

hmmmmmm
get it
??